I'm getting ready to go to bed and I'm thinking, yeah, I'm thinking again, watch out world. I need to be in love, I need to feel that again. But not rush it, have it be real and genuine. And everytime I feel like I might be able to get into a relationship or i might be interested in someone, not Love, but just enjoying spending time with someone, 'she' pops in. And if I somehow envoke her it will be all to real and weird. Why is it that I can't get past certain things. There have been many loves, and I've even told a few. I've been 'in love' and it was great, it was an awful long time ago now it seems, but it was love and it was great. And I've felt that since, not many time but a few. One was a mistake, but that was 3 years ago. But the odd thing is 2 of the loves cheated on me. It's tough to get past sometimes and it's scarred me I know it. But I've moved on and "loved", yes in quotes, again. I guess everything will pan out in the end and as always life will continue. I hear everyday that I'm a great guy with a great personality, a great sense of humor, & a great bod... ok, well, that last one I don't hear, but I do hear that I'm a beautiful man from a friend of mine, but he's just making me feel good. And they always say that she's out there and that I'll find her. I really don't know why this has been the topic of now two recent posts & will most likely continue to be a subject. Maybe this will as well become a spinoff blog. Hmm, one about Stuff, one about Tirades, and another about Relationships or lack there of. Well, this is the final post of the evening, I will ramble more later.
seen this way @ 1:15 AM EST by Sean