Even though I'm not as drunk as I have been recently. I was drinking tonight. Not to forget, not to kill the pain, but because I haven't been out to the bar with the people I was out with in a long time. It wasn't bad, it was the bar, but it wasn't what I had had once before. All I know is that a lot of feelings that decided to rush back to me after all was said & done has made me feel so outside of everything.
I realized a little while ago that all that was in my mind was a scared little boy in a corner. That I saw, in my mind, a scared little boy, made me think of the way I was making decisions in my life.. it made me question things I had felt about before. It made me see the things that weren't clouded by judgment. I came to conclusions based on how I viewed things.
That what it is @ this hour. I've been talking to someone I haven't asked about or talked to in years. Organized is seeming a lot more there again. Recovering I may be, but reformed I CAN be. G'night from the Mt. Zion that is...
seen this way @ 1:58 AM EST by Sean